It’s been a lot! I am recovering from a total knee replacement August 29th.
The first couple weeks were a blur. There were earth angels daily supporting me with meals, overnight stays, and numerous well wishes. As I moved into weeks three and four my nerves began to wake up and repair themselves creating pain up and down my leg.
My body’s innate wisdom has been front and center leading in letting me know what most serves its healing. Inflammation, nausea, pain, and restlessness guided my choices. Sleep and my rigorous twice daily home PT exercises have been a top priority.
Skilled practitioners providing integrative therapies of healing touch, massage, Reiki, microcurrent, homeopathy, herbs, Bemer and Biomat therapy, reflexology, essential oils, and guided meditation have contributed positively to my recovery.
The memories of previous trauma also surfaced into my awareness.
This being my first surgery, I was surprised to feel triggered with inner anguish remembering my 37-year-old sister’s death three days after having leg surgery. This trauma I experienced lived in my cells and reemerged for deeper healing and releasing.
Memories arose about several injuries I have had to my left ankle and knee in the past, no doubt contributing to the degeneration of my knee resulting in the need for this surgery. There were feelings of isolation, fear, pain and suffering I am not sure I experienced during the time of those events now up for living through and letting go.
Recovering from surgery has been humbling as I feel vulnerable, raw and groggy. I have carried a belief that I need to have my own back, pull myself up by my bootstraps, and be independent. Where did I learn I need to earn my keep before deserving support, love, and kindness?
My heart and mind have opened and softened as I continue to rely on my amazing support system. Friends and family are providing rides, meals, help with chores, and inspiring conversations. The countless energetic infusions of light and love are literally felt in my body, heart, and mind as a breath of life assisting as I clear toxins in my body, limiting beliefs and disappointments. The flow of high frequency is literally upgrading my cells.
As a coach, I support my clients and students as they make sustainable choices to live a more authentic and empowered life. As I recover from this knee surgery, I am the receiver not the giver. My understanding of unconditional love has expanded, realizing how conditionally I have received love. I have attached the belief that I am somehow indebted, owe or obligated when I receive. I had the distorted belief that it is superior to give over receiving. My heart has broken open to expand my capacity to receive love, caring and kindness.
I am curious on the other side of this healing process how the lasting effects of this experience will impact my identity, my ability to love and to serve. For now, I am living in the present moment, attending to what is arising and required. The pearls of knowing continue to flow in and I am simply practicing gratitude throughout my day. Thank you for being part of my journey!
Dear Michele,
Thank you for sharing, so beautifully, your journey through your knee replacement. I remember you sharing at the retreat last fall, that you needed the surgery. I’m sorry that I didn’t know so that I could send love and light your way. I guess now is the time for me to flow it! 😊
Blessings to you as you continue to heal physically and transform in many other ways. I’m sending waves of healing light and unconditional love your way. 💖
Oh Michele! This was a beautiful and vulnerable share. I appreciated all you had to say and I’m adding to the love, light and energy being sent your way as you heal from this surgery.
The words you write, Michele, are powerful, articulate, and very wise. Thank you for sharing part of your journey with all of us.
Wow Michele!
I guess I have been out of your loop!?!
I did not know about your going to have or your actually having surgery, but glad to hear you are on the other side and on your way to recovery.
Sounds like all sorts of amazing healing has been going on for you. Thank you for being so open and sharing your experiences and learnings.
Continue to take (and receive) good care from the Earth Angels you wrote about. They are completing a circle of giving and receiving for you.
Blessings,
Ann 💖